luck with self

i’ve become aware of how i respond to the world realizing that every excursion into the past is convoluted by self deception my vulnerability to corruption will not help i wont get out of my comfort zone i have an opportunity to grow but only if i can get comfortable with emptiness life itself is at the helm i am merely at its mercy this will not help me grow bigger sex is nothing without trust this will not help me separate my identity from what i do for work i risk personal health in the name of arrogance i own up to impatience i want something to happen
fourty verses (second chapter). 2019